The last half of 2011, a relationship I thought would last forever started to fall apart. In 2012, it crumbled and broke. I feel like I'm a pretty strong person, but I left that relationship completely shattered, shredded, and lost. I left not knowing who I was, what I wanted, what made me happy, anything that an independent, fun, intelligent self-respecting 30 year old should know. Not long before that, someone came into my life that I believe had something to share with me, to teach me that I really, really needed to learn. Every single day since then has been a challenge. It has tested my self control, my kindness, my strength, my will power, my sanity, everything. I'm wading through the darkness, looking for that glimmer of sunshine.
I need to find myself again. I need to put myself out there. I need to find what makes me happy, who I am, who I want to be. So here I am, I'm going to document what I need to do to find myself, which I know is a lifelong journey. You never stop learning new things about yourself, others, life.
But I need to do something now, I've reached my breaking point. I have a good life, and I'm a good person, a typically happy person. But I lost that. I need to be happy, and to share that happiness. So I"m going to write down the things that make me happy, the things that I'm grateful for, the things that motivate me, and the things that challenge me.
I hope you come along and enjoy the ride.
